Holding Onto Isaiah 55:8-13

I'm thankful for all my sons, but in particular, we have spent the last two days rejoicing in the birth-days of Caleb & Luke. Both unique and special in their own ways!

I unfortunately, am struggling to fully enjoy my time with them because of increased pain as I decrease the strongest meds. Yesterday, I just took one in the morning and one before bed... I stuck to that, but was in a lot of pain from mid-afternoon to bed time. Granted, not as bad as that terrifying pain a week and half ago, for that, I'm ever grateful for! Please, Lord, May I never feel that kind of pain again!

Today, I hoped to only take one before bed, and be done, but the pain was making it hard to breathe fully right before going to meet the "kids" for lunch to celebrate Luke's birthday, so I took one.

It makes my so frustrated, sad, and even mad. How I long to get off of all the med's, and I'm struggling with getting rid of one! And the pain is, well, painful... And exhausting. In my faith, I do believe God works all things out for good! In my nearsightedness, I can't understand. So that leaves me to blindly trust and try to be strong, and let go...?? I also know I can't do all that without God's help. So, I keep praying and hoping He will heal the pain soon. Like my surgeon's nurse said a few days ago, "one day soon, you will wake up and find yourself on an upward swing"... This, oh Lord, I pray for, in the same breath I thank Him I have not had that horrific pain again, and that He is so much wiser, and sees all time, present, past, and future. Isaiah 55:1-13. Go read it all. 💗

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