Broken & Loved

I find myself staying in my recliner longer in the mornings... And today I felt sad, very sad... realizing I don't have a reason to get up... I just feel too spacy & tired to do anything useful. Moving past the month mark, I really hoped to be further along. Joel again, held me as I cried, but not about the level of physical pain, but from feeling stuck and useless.

A close friend with her own long term physical struggles also encouraged me it's okay to rest so my body can recover.

I took another long afternoon nap, and then went outside, to my favorite place to talk to God. Again, I was reminded to take my thoughts captive for Christ...

He is just as much here, loving me, & walking with me, even when my thoughts are down, but He also wants me to look to Him in hope. That is my battle cry, even when my feelings don't match my hope.