Nights
Thankfully, it wasn't just a fluke that I had less pain in the mornings... And more at night. That trend has continued for a few weeks. I eased up on trying to lengthen the times between my muscle relaxers. It may be too soon, or I'm starting to over do it. I'm still praying the pain will one day be totally gone.
Tomorrow it will be 8 weeks!! I do wish I were able to do more, or be further along, but, my faithful husband reminds me the positive changes he is seeing.
I was beginning to dread nights. It didn't feel like the relaxing part of the day like in the past... Dealing with pain, often adjusting as I try to get comfortable, and just plane sleeplessness! Friday night was especially bad. I don't think I slept till after 3 or 4 am... My mind was going deep in the pit, as I tried to not cry out loud and wake up Joel. I felt so over this... And why couldn't I be braver, or more patient?? Finally, I remember a playlist on Spotify with mellow songs that put scripture into music. I put in my earplugs, and that helped my thoughts go in a better direction, Thank God for His mercies, that are new every morning! (Lamentations 3: 22-24)
When one of my boys were struggling with insomnia, the sleep doctor said to fight the thoughts that every night will be like that. It's self perpetuating. I'm happy to report that last night was so much better! I went to sleep pretty fast, and when I woke up, it wasn't long before I fell back to sleep! Thank you Jesus! I needed that so much!
Below is the link to the Spotify play list, it's called ACOUSTIC BIBLE playlist.